My Worth Always Endures

“Why can’t I be normal?” This can be a question that I find myself asking a lot lately.

My Have a problem with Anxiety

One mental health diagnosis that I have is generalized anxiety disorder. My anxiety normally takes a toll on my small day-to-day productivity. Every day that I have class or an extracurricular event, my fear of not being good enough overwhelms me. I had been raised in a way that educated me in it does not matter just how much I attempt, my good is still not good enough. As a result, I struggle with seeing my value and competence. Tasks that take others an hour to complete typically take me twice as long. My fear of failure is immense, however i know that one day I will overcome it. For now, all I can do is conquer it eventually at a time. As long I’m taking steps forward, even if they are baby steps, I'm making progress towards recovery. This is what truly matters!

How Anxiety Affects My Worth

Living with any kind of anxiety is really a constant struggle. Connecting with others has not been a strength of mine. Whenever I've found myself inside a social conversation, I’m either struggling to find the best words, forgetting what I want to say entirely, or acting weird because I cannot handle conversations which are more than a minute. As a result, I often feel lonely and misunderstood. Life turns into a lot harder when battling any mental illness, especially as it pertains to having healthy relationships. Anxiety can often provoke negative thoughts, leading to one doubting their worth. I understand how easy it's to fall into this trap, but regardless of what my mind informs me, it cannot take away my worth. This is what I am inclined to remind myself of whenever I'm struggling, especially in the moments Personally i think as if I am unable to carry on any more.

How I Am Managing My Anxiety

There are still times where If only for normalcy. Not having to deal with anxiety would be a dream become a reality. However, I am understanding how to believe that this can be a part of who I'm. It might not be a pleasant part, but it is something that makes me unique. Embracing it is the answer to my recovery. We all experience our mental health struggles diversely. We may not be normal, but that is okay. Being different is what makes us great. Our uniqueness plays a role in the world inside a positive way, even if we struggle to view it. Our presence is a gift to this world. You matter! Treasure your uniqueness, for it makes the world a better place! Remember to be you, always!