Finding My Mental Strength During COVID-19

Since the beginning of this COVID-19 pandemic, I’ve been working on finding my mental strength. It's felt like my world has halted. I’ve been in the house with individuals that I struggle to really like (I love my loved ones however they can irk my soul), with an abundance of homework, and that's it. Two things I wouldn't think of badly, but yeah they are not so good. I wake up in bed. I eat during sex. I procrastinate my homework by watching Netflix during sex. I do homework in bed. I eat again in bed. I go to settle [my] bed. Occasionally, I sneak up something “productive,” but overall I have been within my bed.

Reality Check

My counselor made me realize a few days ago while I was speaking with her (within my bed), that despite these opinions, I'm not just sitting in bed. I'm doing something big. I'm making history for myself. I'm doing something I wouldn't happen to be able to perform this past year. I'm adapting to my surroundings. If I would've been held in this house this past year, there is a pretty good possibility which i would've slipped into depression. Despite the fact that things may seem bleak for me right now during COVID-19, plus they may seem bleak for you personally right now, pay attention to the things that you've been able to accomplish. I woke up and I didn't sleep for 15 hours today. I ate a genuine meal. Yes, I procrastinated on my small work. I had a good time by myself watching Naruto the very first time. Before all of this started, I dreaded spending time alone.

Finding Mental Strength

You might see me cackling inside my own jokes within the next couple weeks and look at me like I'm crazy, however i don't care. Why? Because there was a time where I could not even do this and since then, I've learned that I'm a pretty cool person. And out of doors of my fun “me time,” I am getting things done. It might not be around before. It may not be precisely the amount which i might be striving for, but it's enough. I know I keep writing blogs about doing my best to survive COVID-19 and that's simply because it's heavy on my small mind.

But even just in the midst of those darker thoughts, I am still simply grateful to be here. To still be smiling. To become penning this blog on the day that it's due, because not only could my situation be worse, as we often hear, but I might be worse. I'm grateful in my finding my mental strength during COVID-19 and that i want to encourage you all to examine your strength too. Until my next pandemic rant.